You’re alone, not lonely.
Why do we use these words synonymously? They are not synonymous. In a world that is now so “connected” we have forgotten how to be with ourselves. We have lost the ability to tolerate our own silence.
That silence is so beautiful, that silence will tell you things that you will never ever hear while staring at a lit up screen.
I am not saying that I am not guilty of the same things. I have a smart phone, I update my instagram, hell I am typing this on tumblr as we speak, We are so conditioned to this idea of “connectedness” that we have completely disonneted ourselves to what is really happening.
I’ve had the house to myself for two straight weeks and I feel almost guilty in admitting how wonderful it has been. I am a person who truly, truly loves to be alone. I spent a lot of time in the yard doing yoga and reading and listening to Norah Jones. (How cliche of me). I sat and did nothing. I cooked myself elaborate dinners, I lit up some candles and just hung out with myself.
You know what? It is the most healing thing. It should be a requirment for everyone, once a month. Put your phone down, go somewhere by yourself and just sit and think about how incredibly amazing it is to have a heart that is beating.
I know, easy for me to say. it’s nice to be alone when at the end of the day you have someone waiting somewhere for you. I get it. But the more I love being by myself, the more I also love my relationship. It is not a relationship of dependence. I love him deeply, but I love myself too and wanting someone but not needing them is the most validating feeling. It is the truest thing when it comes that way.
So go out and be a part of nature for a minute or two. I’ve seen 2 cardinals in the past week and have caught some killer sunsets. Both of which I would have missed had I been checking a twitter feed…
P.S. This is a picture from my family’s farm in Colombia, if looking at it doesn’t make you feel a little happy inside then I don’t know what will.