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Above all, trust in the slow work of God.
We are quite naturally impatient in everything
to reach the end without delay.
We should like to skip the intermediate stages.
We are impatient of being on the way
to something unknown, something new.
Yet it is the law of all progress that is made
by passing through some stages of instability
and that may take a very long time.

And so I think it is with you.
Your ideas mature gradually- let them grow.
let them shape themselves without undue haste.
Do not try to force them on as though you could be today what time (that is to say, grace and circumstances acting on your own good will) will make you tomorrow.
Only God could say what this new Spirit gradually forming in you will be.

Give our Lord the benefit of believing
that his hand is leading you,
and accept the anxiety of feeling yourself
in suspense and incomplete.

Pierre Teilhard 

A gem.

Sometimes I want to cry of sheer happiness. I look around and I face the sky and I thank the heavens for such beauty around me. How absolutely overwhelming it can be. To have a heart that is beating under a sky so blue. To have eyes that can see love, and ears that can hear it and a body to feel the warmth that it radiates.

Sometimes I want to cry of sheer happiness. I look around and I face the sky and I thank the heavens for such beauty around me. How absolutely overwhelming it can be. To have a heart that is beating under a sky so blue. To have eyes that can see love, and ears that can hear it and a body to feel the warmth that it radiates.

Do not forget that the value and interest of life is not so much to do conspicuous things…as to do ordinary things with the perception of their enormous value.

Pierre Teilhard de Chardin

Out of the Darkness Overnight Walk

Friends, please help my best friend meet her fundraising goal! She has one week left! All proceeds will go to the Out of the Darkness Overnight walk to help suicide prevention. Let’s make sure no other family feels what my family and many others have felt.

Found this on the back of a card and loved it! Had to share.

Found this on the back of a card and loved it! Had to share.

You’re alone, not lonely.
Why do we use these words synonymously?  They are not synonymous. In a world that is now so “connected” we have forgotten how to be with ourselves. We have lost the ability to tolerate our own silence.
That silence is so beautiful, that silence will tell you things that you will never ever hear while staring at a lit up screen.
 I am not saying that I am not guilty of the same things.  I have a smart phone, I update my instagram, hell I am typing this on tumblr as we speak, We are so conditioned to this idea of “connectedness” that we have completely disonneted ourselves to what is really happening.  
I’ve had the house to myself for two straight weeks and I feel almost guilty in admitting how wonderful it has been.  I am a person who truly, truly loves to be alone.  I spent a lot of time in the yard doing yoga and reading and listening to Norah Jones. (How cliche of me).  I sat and did nothing.  I cooked myself elaborate dinners, I lit up some candles and just hung out with myself.
You know what? It is the most healing thing.  It should be a requirment for everyone, once a month.  Put your phone down, go somewhere by yourself and just sit and think about how incredibly amazing it is to have a heart that is beating.  
I know, easy for me to say.  it’s nice to be alone when at the end of the day you have someone waiting somewhere for you.  I get it. But the more I love being by myself, the more I also love my relationship.  It is not a relationship of dependence.  I love him deeply, but I love myself too and wanting someone but not needing them is the most validating feeling. It is the truest thing when it comes that way.  
So go out and be a part of nature for a minute or two.   I’ve seen 2 cardinals in the past week and have caught some killer sunsets.  Both of which I would have missed had I been checking a twitter feed…
P.S.  This is a picture from my family’s farm in Colombia, if looking at it doesn’t make you feel a little happy inside then I don’t know what will.

You’re alone, not lonely.

Why do we use these words synonymously?  They are not synonymous. In a world that is now so “connected” we have forgotten how to be with ourselves. We have lost the ability to tolerate our own silence.

That silence is so beautiful, that silence will tell you things that you will never ever hear while staring at a lit up screen.

 I am not saying that I am not guilty of the same things.  I have a smart phone, I update my instagram, hell I am typing this on tumblr as we speak, We are so conditioned to this idea of “connectedness” that we have completely disonneted ourselves to what is really happening.  

I’ve had the house to myself for two straight weeks and I feel almost guilty in admitting how wonderful it has been.  I am a person who truly, truly loves to be alone.  I spent a lot of time in the yard doing yoga and reading and listening to Norah Jones. (How cliche of me).  I sat and did nothing.  I cooked myself elaborate dinners, I lit up some candles and just hung out with myself.

You know what? It is the most healing thing.  It should be a requirment for everyone, once a month.  Put your phone down, go somewhere by yourself and just sit and think about how incredibly amazing it is to have a heart that is beating.  

I know, easy for me to say.  it’s nice to be alone when at the end of the day you have someone waiting somewhere for you.  I get it. But the more I love being by myself, the more I also love my relationship.  It is not a relationship of dependence.  I love him deeply, but I love myself too and wanting someone but not needing them is the most validating feeling. It is the truest thing when it comes that way.  

So go out and be a part of nature for a minute or two.   I’ve seen 2 cardinals in the past week and have caught some killer sunsets.  Both of which I would have missed had I been checking a twitter feed…

P.S.  This is a picture from my family’s farm in Colombia, if looking at it doesn’t make you feel a little happy inside then I don’t know what will.

Let everything go and just be. Whatever you conceive God to be, trust him, or it.

Let everything go and just be. Whatever you conceive God to be, trust him, or it.

Well yes.

Well yes.

Lately I’ve been trying to focus my mind and energy on the positive.  Something I’ve noticed about myself within the past few years is the vulnerability I have to other people’s energy.  This includes both good energy and bad energy. 
More often than not, the energy around me (in other words, the people around me) are not positive flows of energy.  Many times, they are negative, meloncholic and anxiety producing.  I have made it a personal goal of mine to keep a clear mind and heart when surrounded by what feels like chaos.  I have to be clear and say that this sounds a bit over dramatic given my life.  My definition of “chaos” is significantly less than the true chaos that torments other people.  But, all in all, it is my chaos that applies solely to me. 
The past two weeks or so I have noticed myself feeling very, very tired. While I overall feel content, I am dragging my body around.  My runs have been slower and less often. My daily workouts, which I usually look forward to, have been forced and and a lot less fulfilling. The couch and a nap have sounded much more appealing than they ever really have.
I finally got back to my gentle yoga class last night and if you have never done it, are feeling low on energy and need to “re-set” I HIGHLY recommend it.  It is an hour that frees my mind of absolutely every thought.  It is the closest to “dream state” that you can be without actually being asleep.  It is a tride and true method in acheving self awareness and balance.
I think my lack of energy has everything to do with how I “feed” off of what is around me.  While I am completing my own routine day in and day out.  Emotionally I am exhausted.  I am on overload because I am internalizing all the heaviness that is around me.  It’s a sort of vicious cycle.  The lethargy makes me less likely to work out and the not working out leaves me feeling more lethargic. Energy is overall at a low.   It’s amazing how much physical activity plays a role in my overall feeling of wellness for both body AND mind. I’m looking forward to getting back into and more involved with my yoga.
I’ve decided to keep a gratitude journal.  I think it’s important to be concious more of our triumphs and blessings than of our failures and pains.  I am hoping this will rejuvinate my mind, thus allowing me to get back into taking good care of my body.  Law of attration right?! Put good things out, get good things in.  I’m all about it.

Lately I’ve been trying to focus my mind and energy on the positive.  Something I’ve noticed about myself within the past few years is the vulnerability I have to other people’s energy.  This includes both good energy and bad energy. 

More often than not, the energy around me (in other words, the people around me) are not positive flows of energy.  Many times, they are negative, meloncholic and anxiety producing.  I have made it a personal goal of mine to keep a clear mind and heart when surrounded by what feels like chaos.  I have to be clear and say that this sounds a bit over dramatic given my life.  My definition of “chaos” is significantly less than the true chaos that torments other people.  But, all in all, it is my chaos that applies solely to me. 

The past two weeks or so I have noticed myself feeling very, very tired. While I overall feel content, I am dragging my body around.  My runs have been slower and less often. My daily workouts, which I usually look forward to, have been forced and and a lot less fulfilling. The couch and a nap have sounded much more appealing than they ever really have.

I finally got back to my gentle yoga class last night and if you have never done it, are feeling low on energy and need to “re-set” I HIGHLY recommend it.  It is an hour that frees my mind of absolutely every thought.  It is the closest to “dream state” that you can be without actually being asleep.  It is a tride and true method in acheving self awareness and balance.

I think my lack of energy has everything to do with how I “feed” off of what is around me.  While I am completing my own routine day in and day out.  Emotionally I am exhausted.  I am on overload because I am internalizing all the heaviness that is around me.  It’s a sort of vicious cycle.  The lethargy makes me less likely to work out and the not working out leaves me feeling more lethargic. Energy is overall at a low.   It’s amazing how much physical activity plays a role in my overall feeling of wellness for both body AND mind. I’m looking forward to getting back into and more involved with my yoga.

I’ve decided to keep a gratitude journal.  I think it’s important to be concious more of our triumphs and blessings than of our failures and pains.  I am hoping this will rejuvinate my mind, thus allowing me to get back into taking good care of my body.  Law of attration right?! Put good things out, get good things in.  I’m all about it.