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Petition to Ban Synthetic Drugs

Dear Friends,

Please, please, please, sign this petition to ban synthetic drugs. If you are not familiar with what they are, The National Institute of Drug Abuse describes them as:

 ”a wide variety of herbal mixtures that produce experiences similar to marijuana (cannabis) and that are marketed as “safe,” legal alternatives to that drug. Sold under many names, including K2, fake weed, Yucatan Fire, Skunk, Moon Rocks, and others — and labeled “not for human consumption” — these products contain dried, shredded plant material and chemical additives that are responsible for their psychoactive (mind-altering) effects.

This synthetic marijuana  aided my nephew in taking his own life. These drugs are TOXIC to the brain and can cause psychotic effects like extreme anxiety, paranoia, and hallucinations.  Days leading up to his passing, my nephew was experiencing hallucinations and withdrawal symptoms.  

Labels on this drug misadvise teens into thinking they are “natural”. They are easy to purchase and more easily abused.  PLEASE help me in getting this POISON off of shelves.  The next child lost could be your brother, your sister, your CHILD.  Please do not allow another mother to bury her son.  Follow the link below and join this fight.

http://www.change.org/en-CA/petitions/president-of-the-united-states-to-ban-or-modify-synthetic-drugs-a-k-a-k2-spice-bath-salts-etc?utm_source=share_petition&utm_medium=facebook&utm_campaign=share_facebook_mobile&recruiter=88938033

I agree.

I agree.

Today I lost a nephew.
 In my mind and in my heart, I can not understand why we are meant to withstand such grief.  I am full of  questions and nowehere can I find the answers.
20 years ago I lost my brother Joseph, today I lost my nephew who was named after him.  This life does not make sense to me. 
I feel as though my chest can no longer hold my heart, it has grown too heavy.

Today I lost a nephew.

 In my mind and in my heart, I can not understand why we are meant to withstand such grief.  I am full of  questions and nowehere can I find the answers.

20 years ago I lost my brother Joseph, today I lost my nephew who was named after him.  This life does not make sense to me. 

I feel as though my chest can no longer hold my heart, it has grown too heavy.

Spring is breaking. Let us count the clouds in that great blue sky. 

My little munchkin knows what it’s all about…

Spring is breaking. Let us count the clouds in that great blue sky.

My little munchkin knows what it’s all about…

A few co-workers and I were talking last week.  I don’t know how the topic came up but somewhere in our conversation one of them looks at me and tells me that I’m one of the most laid back people she’s known.  She takes it a step further and says I am “calming” to be around.  I have been thinking about this for days now because had she met me 4 or 5 years ago she would think I was a completely different person.  How quickly we can transform and forget our own transformation.
Years ago I suffered from awful anxiety.  So much to do, not enough time, everything had to be perfect, so many things could potentially go wrong.  This was my thought process.  Always afraid of what might happen.  Not focused enough on what was happening in that very moment.
I spent months refusing to drive, especially drive anywhere I was not familiar with.  An hour long car ride to visit my boyfriend at college would sometimes cause panic attacks. I look back now and it is almost comical, what was that?! ha seems so silly but at that time it was so real.  
I remember my worst ever panic attack.  I got so worked up that my hands locked up and I couldn’t move them.  I sat in front of a mirror convincing myself that something was terribly, terribly wrong, trying somehow to make them move.  The panic and hyperventilating had caused my muscles to contract so tightly that they cramped up. It was a good 15 minutes of sheer dread, begging my boyfriend to “fix it PLEASE.” It wasn’t until I calmed down that I could open them back up again
I realize how incredibly far I have come in overcoming my anxiety. Medication was an option that I did not want.  This was something I knew I had the power to overcome.   
Now as I write this I don’t know the last time I had a panic attack—it has been years.  I no longer see impending doom around every corner.  I drive wherever I want, whenever I want, even when  it is dark! ha. 
 I am such a big believer in training the mind. The thoughts that you cultivate are the ones that become real—for the good and the bad.  I long ago learned to train my mind for the good, living with anxiety is no real way to live and everyday I choose to think of the positive. A choice. I don’t just think good thoughts, I believe them.
Do I experience everyday anxieties like everyone else? sure I do. Do I sometimes find myself falling into a pattern of anxiety, yup!  Do I let this rule my life? No, not anymore. I realize that unlike so many things, this is something that is within my own control & I am the happiest I have ever been.  That’s it.

A few co-workers and I were talking last week.  I don’t know how the topic came up but somewhere in our conversation one of them looks at me and tells me that I’m one of the most laid back people she’s known.  She takes it a step further and says I am “calming” to be around.  I have been thinking about this for days now because had she met me 4 or 5 years ago she would think I was a completely different person.  How quickly we can transform and forget our own transformation.

Years ago I suffered from awful anxiety.  So much to do, not enough time, everything had to be perfect, so many things could potentially go wrong.  This was my thought process.  Always afraid of what might happen.  Not focused enough on what was happening in that very moment.

I spent months refusing to drive, especially drive anywhere I was not familiar with.  An hour long car ride to visit my boyfriend at college would sometimes cause panic attacks. I look back now and it is almost comical, what was that?! ha seems so silly but at that time it was so real.  

I remember my worst ever panic attack.  I got so worked up that my hands locked up and I couldn’t move them.  I sat in front of a mirror convincing myself that something was terribly, terribly wrong, trying somehow to make them move.  The panic and hyperventilating had caused my muscles to contract so tightly that they cramped up. It was a good 15 minutes of sheer dread, begging my boyfriend to “fix it PLEASE.” It wasn’t until I calmed down that I could open them back up again

I realize how incredibly far I have come in overcoming my anxiety. Medication was an option that I did not want.  This was something I knew I had the power to overcome.   

Now as I write this I don’t know the last time I had a panic attack—it has been years.  I no longer see impending doom around every corner.  I drive wherever I want, whenever I want, even when  it is dark! ha. 

 I am such a big believer in training the mind. The thoughts that you cultivate are the ones that become real—for the good and the bad.  I long ago learned to train my mind for the good, living with anxiety is no real way to live and everyday I choose to think of the positive. A choice. I don’t just think good thoughts, I believe them.

Do I experience everyday anxieties like everyone else? sure I do. Do I sometimes find myself falling into a pattern of anxiety, yup!  Do I let this rule my life? No, not anymore. I realize that unlike so many things, this is something that is within my own control & I am the happiest I have ever been.  That’s it.

I know too many people that could benefit from this right now so I thought it was worth a share.  
What you surround yourself with ultimately becomes your path.  Fortify your life with positivity.  Life is too precious to spend convincing people that you are worthy of their love and respect.  Sometimes we love people, but we just can’t like them.  Love those people at a distance.

I know too many people that could benefit from this right now so I thought it was worth a share.  

What you surround yourself with ultimately becomes your path.  Fortify your life with positivity.  Life is too precious to spend convincing people that you are worthy of their love and respect.  Sometimes we love people, but we just can’t like them.  Love those people at a distance.

Because The Dalai Lama Said So

About a year or two ago, I read a really great book recommended by a friend (Painter, if you’re reading this, I’m pointing to you.)  The book is called The Art of Happiness by the Dalai Lama.  Go, write that title down, and read it.

Anyway, I recently picked the book back up.  My mom and I tend to get into these “philosophical—meaning of life talks” and something about our last conversation lead me to sharing pages of this book with her.  

We had been discussing a family member of mine who has gone through a very hard time recently.  She left a job where she was needed, respected and comfortable to start in a new place at the bottom, with little confidence and a larger work load.  The driving force behind this decision was money.  Of course, what else would drive someone to make a decision like that other than needing more money….?

In less than a year she realized how overwhelming such a change could be and how little happiness the extra money brought her.  The worst part of the entire ordeal seemed to be her feeling of inadequacy.  In this new place she was not as competant, slower to finish and overal ljust  exhausted. She could not cope with the fact that she was no longer the best one for the job.  People did not think she was the right fit. So, she and that job parted ways.

My mom and I continued our conversation and began talking about the idea of perfectionism.  A trait that runs so fiercely through our veins. The need and desire to be the best at everything we do—school, work, relationships, everything.  We are all our harshest critics; overly worried about what other people will think of our performance.  

My family member couldn’t stand the idea of not being “good enough”, about not measuring up to other people’s expectations.  I can relate. I often feel like I go above and beyond in a lot of areas of my life because I want people to see that I am good at what I do.  I often forget to ask myself if what I am doing is good enough for me and me alone.

This is when I shared this specific quote with my mom.  My original intent was to put into perspective my family members situation.  I ultimately ended up reminding myself that other’s opinions are just that.  opinions. Here is the quote I am referencing:

"I am sincere, and I tried my best.  WIth a sincere motivation, one of compassion, even if I make a mistake or fail, there is no cause for regret.  For my part I did my best.  If I failed, it was because the situation was beyond my best efforts."

Why have I not always remembered that?!  (probably because I’ve been too worried about what other people are thinking) & even then, people can perceive things a multitude of different ways.  It is possible to fail when giving it your best. and all in all, that’s just fine, scary, but fine.

So my take home from all of this is: always put your best foot forward, be sincere, be motivated and be OKAY with not always being the best.  Life will go on & we will all be better for it.

Amen.

You can’t be good at loving someone else if you don’t love you first! Happy Valentines Day lovely people of the world!

You can’t be good at loving someone else if you don’t love you first! Happy Valentines Day lovely people of the world!